Creative Writing: Daybook 2018

I write all of my appointments for the week in my daybook and turn the page to note the possible coffee date with my friend Michelle next week. But there is no new page because it’s the end of the year.

It’s the end of a year.

This hits me hard somehow, and I cringe a little.

So much good has happened this year.
So much sadness has filled my heart.

I have seen a mother lose a boy not even a year old, and parents lose ones they had not even named yet. I have seen a family face cancer with courage, and another one say goodbye with grace. I have come alongside a woman who moved from helplessness to strength, and one who found her soulmate. I have witnessed a child find a brand new mom who loves him fully and new parents discovering a level of joy they never knew was possible.

And as I look at the days of uncontrollable grief that turns into acceptance and strength, and the days of hope beyond what was thought possible, I can only stand in awe of God and declare “it is well with my soul.”

I have been privileged to love on the unlovable and realize I was no different than them. I have had the joy of listening intently to hundreds of stories. Some shattered my heart, and some filled it with pride for the human race. Others ripped it apart, while others still mended me softly.

At times, I have soared this year.

Soared with hope and a sense of contentment like never before. Soared as I realized that I was living my purposefully. Soared as I met new beautiful people. Soared with joy unexplainable and full of glory.

At times, I have lost my way this year.

Two surgeries did not yield the expected result. I found myself not knowing how to handle the disappointment, the awareness of my human frailty adding so much weight to it that I despaired. And despair had not been allowed in my vocabulary.
Until now.
Until I discovered that it makes me more human, more understanding, more reachable, more needy for my Savior.

And as I soared and lost this year, I have turned the pages of my daybook week after week.

I am one year older now. My body feels it even though I don’t want it to, and I can’t quite figure out how to age gracefully. Yet I know that at the end of each day, at the end of each year, He is still the Potter and I am still the clay, and the clay knows how to yield to the Potter as He fulfills His purpose for it.

I take a deep breath and close the daybook that has no more pages in it.

God has more pages for me. Some in which I will soar, some in which I might not. But at the end of each one, I will stand in awe and conclude, “It is well with my soul.”

Did You Know that Your Thoughts Affect the Health of Your Brain?

You can decide how intelligent you want to be.

Did you know that your thoughts actually influence your own intelligence? You are as intelligent as you want to be–whether a toxic intelligence or a healthy one.

Intelligence is grown with the thoughts that you choose to entertain.

Mind influences matter!

All day long you think, choose and build structures in your brain.

Two weeks ago, we saw that the thoughts you and I think are entities which are very much alive, growing into structures that look like trees in the brain.

Your thoughts actually change your brain. This can be great news or a disaster. Because if you do not change your brain positively, you are actually changing it in a negative direction–there is no neutral setting.

Your brain can make you sick.

If you constantly think toxic thoughts, you are actually building toxicity in your brain. This toxicity causes inflammation that literally destroys brain tissues.

Here is the science simplified behind this: when we have a toxic thought, we build a physical protein structure. Because we are wired for good, our brain has no substance to build something negative and we wind up building an incorrect substance–everything goes haywire.

Our thought life is the first cause of most illnesses– 75 to 98 % of ALL diseases come from our thought life!

Whether we see them or not, our toxic choices have physical consequences in our brain.

The good news!

The good news is this: wherever you direct your attention, your mind will follow.

Wherever you put your attention, that is what you are building.

And no one can make you put your attention here or there. This is yours to decide.

So, in every way that matters, you get to choose where your life is going. In my book, that is fantastic news!

You actually create your own positive or negative reality. I will address this more in two weeks. For now, let yourself be aware of the thoughts in your mind–are they fostering a good environment for your brain or not?

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